Cathy

She was like sunshine to me.
I felt alive when I was with her!
I felt that maybe there is a god.
And maybe he doesn’t hate me.
I thought she was the one who would save me!
I won’t tell how we rode home from the auction.
How I, for the second and last time in my life got to second base.

My impossible dream with Cathy: I wanted to be with her, have a nice house and car, a boat and 2 children,a boy and a girl. I wanted to spend my life with her growing old together and in time leaving this world with her by my side. I wanted to give her all of my love and spoil her with everything I could possibly give her.

A nice but impossible dream because she did not want me.

The pieces of my heart are like the stars in the sky, to many to count, and too far away to put back together.

All I have is a picture that she gave uncle Bob.

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