New Reality

 My mom is gone.

I have a semi-child who can't dress herself or use the bathroom by herself.

She seems to have all of her memories but her actions are foggy like dementia.

I am ex-hosted.

I am receiving no help from my brother or sister.

I had to take mom to Rochester today and my brother didn't go with me. So you would think that he would at least clean the house, do the dishes (in our dishwasher), or finish mom's laundry. Nope.

It's 10pm and I just finished putting my mom to bed and picking up the kitchen.

If my family thinks that they can break me then let them try. I will be the only one left standing in the end and they will be known by their hatred.

I took mom to see her sister Gail yesterday.

Still a lot of fighting going on down there. I can't get involved with it or it will take away from the time I have left with my mom.

On the bright side, Taylor dyed my mom's hair pink,purple, and blue.

Mom really enjoyed it and she seemed to have a good time.

Peggy gave me a junk camper that her daughter destroyed with the help of her husband.

I hope that I can repair it enough so that I will have a place to stay when my mom dies.

I think that she has weeks, maybe months, if I have an unprecedented turn of luck.

So I am living under the sword of dandiclese in hope of enough time to secure a place to live, take care of my mom, finding enough money someplace to pay for a funeral that's all but certain, while trying to clean, manage, and preserver my mom and her home.

I will not succeed. All I can do is keep fighting until everything I love is gone.

The camper is beyond repair.

Location: Watkins Glen, NY, USA

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